Close to Self-Destruction

not, not anymore.
i mean i sorta caught on the fact that you dont.
so to me it's like, what's the point.
i hate this kind of thing.
disappointed, of course i have to say.
but this will only make both parties feel even more painful.
anyway, i've never bugged you, have i?
i just want things to go back as per normal.
yeah..oh well.

anyway, im having gastric flu like, now?
or maybe it went away already.
but yeah. last night when i went to bed it was okay.
but in the middle of the night i kept waking up because of the acute pain in my tummy.
i had no diarrhoea or vomitting. but i really felt like it.
just that nothing came out.
so i woke up at like 9+?? like wtf. i slept at 4+ sia. -.-

i msged T and asked her what do i have to do if im sick and cant go for work.
she said to find a replacement. but like, no one was able to.
so i texted the EVM. then she said she would get back to me if i dont have to go down.
but if she didnt call, means i have to go down.
so thankfully, she called.
God aint that mean afterall. haha.
okay immediately after i said this, the pain is back. -.- wtfffff.

so..i only had a slice of bread today. arghh.
very lethargic. i think i shall go sleep again. oh well.
till then.