sucksss. none of us got in! :(
this was the reason why i didnt even want to join in the first place.
i hate to pin my hopes on something and then have it crushed in the end.
the phrase 'as long as you do your best' does not apply to me.
i would rather not do my best and then fail.
because at least i know that it's not because im not good enough.
but because i dont want to do my ultimate best.
and then i will know that, all i have to do is rectify my mistake and try again.
then will i finally succeed.
but when i've done my best and failed.
im confused. and..indignant.
i dont feel that i've done anything wrong. or deserve to fail. why didnt i succeed?
and i guess what's worse for me in this competition is that, i have absolutely no idea where i went wrong.
the judges said i was good. well, at least they implied.
they asked if i joined any music school. or competitions.
said it was nice. and even said i sounded like the original singer.
but what i want to know is, where did i go wrong?
otherwise how am i supposed to improved and do better?
arghh this sucks.
and i always end up brushing my luck to the people before and after me.
every competition also like that.
everyone else just before and after me manage to get in.
like, for example i was 1060. so 1059, 1061, 1062, 1063 all got in.
*sighs* oh well. just feeling disappointed. well maybe not just. but yeah.
and just needed a place to rant.
i hate how everytime the same things happen, they have such a great impact on me.
alright. i guess im done with my self-pitying.
PS. oh btw, i didnt get in for the YT one too. *shrugs*
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